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@lunamoonlight
Thanks for your comment on my post That’s me, alright.

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Last post today (please check out my rant post after the funny ones)

Last post today
So, I drew this for a Game Informer contest. Didn’t win. So. I’m sorta sad cuz I’ve entered this dang contest 3 times in the last year and a half, and no go. But my first time drawing famous video game characters!!!

Mario and Peach during the 2020 Quarantine heh heh

I have the post saved to my camera roll cuz every time I see it I laugh so hard.
Jay makes my day

Yeah wait, had to post this (a bit of a convo from me and Luna regarding Daisuke Hirakawa, Orlando Bloom’s official voiceover actor)-

Why are you so mEaN XD

Luna, you can call me at 3 (2 for you) tomorrow :D ILL BE WAITING
(I won’t be calling cuz I may be doing something but I’ll stop whatever it is if you call)

Okay, so, this is, um, sorta hard to say. And it will be long so if you don’t wanna take the time to read that’s okay. So, I don’t post in journal anymore anyway so I’ll just post it here so I can get as much help as I can.

As y’all know, I have really really low self esteem, and feel like I’m not pretty. I’ve spoken to my mother about this already and she says I need to stop comparing myself to others. I didn’t think i did this, but turns out I do. Example: as you know I love LotR and stuff, and I watched another Liv Tyler film (Armageddon). I think she is beautiful (no y’all I’m not gay, and you know that LOL, anyway, I just think she’s beautiful in a ‘HOW DO YOU LOOK LIKE THAT’ way). Of course, it’s all movie magic, special effects and etc... but just the overall look, in any film she looks at least pretty.

Anyway, I’ve tried different ways of making myself feel better, I’ve used makeup (which helps some), and I’m growing out my hair cuz I feel like that’ll look better. I feel like I just don’t like my face, or anything. On the one hand, I love my body cuz it’s at a good weight and looks like a dancer’s body and everything, and there’s nothing wrong with me, but then I feel like everything colliding (face, body, etc) makes me look like a guy. I’ve been told I don’t, and I guess I don’t, but I have extremely small *ahem* breasts and I’m 16 (well, 16 for 2 weeks haha) and I feel like I’m going to grow up to look like a guy. My mother has small breasts too so I guess that’s not bad, but it makes me feel conscious about myself. I mean, it’d make me feel like that either way so IDK.

Overall, I just don’t think I look good. One of the reasons I draw is because I can draw beautiful characters, draw the way I wanna look. I guess that’s my therapy, like Luna used art to help her with depression. But I don’t feel depressed, I just feel sad, and that’s two different things.

I feel like I won’t get married or anything because I feel like I’m nothing to look at, and looks are always first impression. I know that I shouldn’t care about a guy whose that shallow but I think looks have some importance. I know I have a fun personality but that’s not everything. Also, the only way I’m not having ugly kids (if I do have kids) is if i marry some amazingly good looking guy whose actually decided he wants to get down out of his league and marry me and have a family with me (my brother just said, “someone like LEGOLAS.” I said, “yeah I guess but he’s Hollywood too” anyway besides the point).

In summary I don’t feel pretty. I’m also really shy and I feel like the only way someone would come up to talk to me (a guy, I mean, I’m not really worried about friends cuz I would talk more, I wouldn’t talk to a cute guy so; I do wanna get married but I feel like I’m hurting my chances). My mother is gonna try and help me find some makeup tips that’ll help me feel better (I like the smoky eye look Emma Stone has in Zombieland :D). Anyway any tips?

I know looks aren’t everything but they are something to me.

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