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Hi! I'm new here, just saying hello!

FunHeart1010 Welcome!

KnightStar Thanks!

greatamazingCheezits Sup

Pumpkin Hi

KnightStar Hello kitten

Pumpkin Hi knight.

Posted on my diary.

lunalovegoodmolly KK

The Amazon Forest is on fire! I am really scared and sad about it. It seems a lot of famous places in the World are on fire for no reason.

lunalovegoodmolly I know! I hope it can be saved!

lunamoonlight Wow

Willow7890 People should really pay more attention to the environment rather than their phones

FunHeart1010 lol then why are you on your phone.

TheUltimateRealDude1 Ooh gotcha!

Pumpkin Oh no!

Queeny I know, it's horrible :( Hopefully it doesn't destroy all of it

KnightStar Well, it was most likely a farmer. Farmers like setting fires to make room for their crops, so it got out of hand Willow. And there is not WIFI in the Amazons I don't think. No one casually walks around it with their phones, then you'd be really injured because you have to be really careful there.

Pumpkin It is sad but fires make good soil for future trees

CoolKiid There is a reason

What's the scariest thing you've held? I've held a 7-foot boa live boa when I was nine, and those monkeys that have those huge orange eyes? I can't remember what they're called. It was very cute but bites hard.

lunamoonlight Idk, a lizard?

lunalovegoodmolly idk

AlbiSeli A spidey. XDD

FunHeart1010 idk a large knife? A gun? Idrk.

lunamoonlight Wait no, Spike the lizard was nice, so probably a spider bigger than my palm.

FairyPrincess I don't know


I wish I could stop falling

MoonPeach Yeahhh like... do you like this song? I personally have nothing against you but IDK?

KnightStar Yes! It is a legend! Elvis Presley is A LEGEND!

lunalovegoodmolly I love Elivis!!!!!

lunamoonlight I couldn't care less about Elvis tbh.

GemHeart Elvis is okay! I like his songs, at least better than Michael Jackson and his messed p wacko life

MoonPeach lol


Been subbed for awhile, his videos are good

Do you have an accent?

lunalovegoodmolly Yes. everyone does

lunamoonlight According to my cousin in Tennessee I do.

KnightStar What kind I meant lol

KnightStar I have a country accent sort of? All my friends say I have a country accent but at the same time Spanish? I am from Central America so...it confuses me.

done with school for the day, how's your day going?

Holahi Still summer

Pumpkin Ok

lunalovegoodmolly It is almost the end of summer for me. My day has been good!

I won’t be on much, so here’s a short reason why:


I don’t what to do. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. Scared of being alone. I feel something missing with my life considering nothing feels real anymore. Well, it never did. Never, ever did. Everyone seems like robots or fictional characters in my head. Like I’m making all of it up. Or I’m just watching a show from my lens. I can’t interact with people. It’s been this way for so long. I feel empty. I don’t even know if I’m breaking, or I’m missing something that was never there. I was feeling nothing for so long that when the feelings come in, I realize I messed up in my life and I can’t go back. And when I finally feel numb, I feel like I’m in a dream. I’m so paranoid I can’t tell anyone anywhere what’s going on because I feel like their going to take my information. Kill me with for all I know. I can’t wake up every morning. I struggle to get out of bed, so I stay in bed. The only time I go out of my bed is to get something to eat. Because of this, and being a vegetarian, my bones feel like there bending and cutting through my skin and it’s another reason I don’t want to move anymore. I just want to cry. I want to go to sleep and wake up somewhere warm. Somewhere real and not this illusion. I have this feeling no one I know is real. I can’t feel them. I look in the mirror and I don’t even think I’m real. My body is just an illusion. The only thing that was real was my grandmother and now she’s gone. I almost repeated last year because I felt like reality wasn’t real anymore. I’m not scared of going through things, I’m just scared of the thought of doing it. I don’t know if I’m stupid. That’s why life is so numb and unreal. I’m just an idiot that overthinks everything. I over think my religion. Like where do we go when we die? I’ve thought of it so much I think I have the solution. But why am I thinking of death when I have so many lonely years ahead of me. I’ve stopped my motivation to live. Get up in the morning, take a bath, brush my teeth, where it become painless. Sometimes I wish I had what the people in my mind had. Or what my version of myself is. In my head, I feel real and loved. In real life, I feel like an illusion wandering, watching people’s lives go on as I’m stuck in time. I’ve been locked up behind walls. I haven’t gone outside in three weeks. Not even to the grocery store. I don’t even remember the feeling I had when I was younger. Only that I’m lost now. Trying to find myself. When I grow up, I don’t know if I want to be a hopeless waiter or like my Dad says, the poorest and stupidest work at chicken houses. I have faith in myself. I found a little bit of it. I don’t know what to do with it. Ill figure it out. And maybe then ill figure out where its coming from so I can make more of it. But I still feel like something is missing. Like I KNOW that this year I’ll fall out of love with life like last year. Still something missing, I guess. My mom said if I get good grades then for high school, I can have friends or something like that. Maybe possibly go to regular school. Maybe then Ill find something good with my life. But for now, I’m just lost in time.

To sum it up there's a lot of stuff I need to deal with right now. I have a great life!

FunHeart1010 I hope your future get's better Knight...

lunalovegoodmolly I will miss you when you aren't on. Please check in every once and a while.

lunamoonlight I miss you knight. And I have felt like this before too, until i got help from my mom. I cannot say I have been in your situation, but a similar one. What helped me out of that also was hope, hope that things would get better, i starting to see the silver linings of everything.

Pumpkin god bless you

KnightStar Thanks everyone

FunHeart1010 I'll miss you lots Knight..

cakelover i will miss you too

GemHeart God bless you!!!! I hope everything gets better.