#NothingButTheTruth

#NothingButTheTruth

#NothingButTheTruth

#NothingButTheTruth

as a young kid, I have handled death and bullying and fake friends and parents fighting and millions of fears and paranoia of different things on the news and when i was younger i couldn't even take it all in because all of it was coming at me so fast, i was to young to really know what was going on, and now that i do i wish i could go back to not knowing anything about anything but i cant. My parents have never sugar-coated anything or blocked anything from me, if i asked what something was they would tell me, like if i asked what suicide was they told me and they know im bullied, my dad doesnt give a flarf about me getting bullied at all, he wants me to go back to normal school knowing im going to get hurt from the bullies again, my mom is just focusing on me getting good grades, i have been trying not to have a break down of everything, or should i say ANOTHER breakdown out of the many i have had. then i go online to here or watch YouTube till 4 am to try and make me calm down so i can actually fall asleep and get out of needing to think about every little thing that's going on everywhere in my life and just calm down and breath. when i started writing it was my way of telling people this and my sketching was me showing people what's going on inside my head 24/7, it was so i could have 5 minutes away, but everyone thinks its just doodling and chicken scratching on a piece of paper when i could be doing homework or chores or helping out. and i have had everyone commenting on my weight because i am sitting down trying to breath and stress-eating from everything, i dont give a flarf about exsircise or any of that, i have gaven up on caring about what i look like just because people say i look bad or have no sense of style, cause why does that even matter? i have got more important things to worry about. and i have been slacking off at school because im going online to get a breather, listen to some music to calm me down, because people have seen me furious and its not a pretty sight, so i would rather get a couple Fs than lash out at someone and have a breakdown. this might be why i get bullied, but everyone who bullies me can go the flarf away and worry about their own problems. and every fake friend i have had can go do the same, some of those bullies and fake friends can go jump in a fire for all i care tbh. and every real friend i have had is either dead or moved away. i don't have any person to talk to face-to-face, because as much as kidznet is great and awesome and all of you guys are my best friends, its not the same as having someone outside the screen. i have had a tough life and as ok as i might seem most of the time, i am not one bit, i have lost any mental and emotional health i have ever had, and it takes a lot to wake up and get up everyday pretending to be perfectly fine when im anything but fine. im getting fired up on this post. i don't act anywhere near perfect, im sarcastic, sassy, depressed, inverted, and i dont care about most things people bring up to me. i like silence at night because its better than all the yelling i hear during the day. and i like darker colors and just plain black because they help me hide my emotions more than having all these bright sunshiny colors everywhere. i have never cared what people think of me and i still dont. and random people online i dont even know, strangers, are the people i can trust most out of anyone in this world. and really quick, i would like to thank all of you for being here for me, since my life hasnt been that great currently, im not even sure i would still be here without you guys. thank you all, just for being my friends.

Guys.... Just listen. I cried during this. This is one of my favorite YouTubers named SSSniperWolf, and I loved this video, loved the message.

Appearently a lot of people google searched if eating cotton balls is dangerous (which it is). I'm just like "... Go eat some marshmellos or something. What lack of common sense must you have to eat cotton balls?"