OK. Well, here it goes.

If you are reading my diary, then you know life is really not the best right now. Maybe ok, but not the best, I've had the worst days. I don't want to start drama by stating this. I have school and I'm depressed right now. Most days I'll just wake up and cry. Or cry in the bathroom. Or cry on a swing swung. And I feel like KS isn't helping, it's just a distraction and it's all just part of the numbing process. Another reason I won't be on like Summer this year is because of the amount of Tumblr I'm getting from here. It's just turning into a kid Tumblr. Everyday someone accuses me of being racist, homophobic, transphobic, and it doesn't stop. And I reckon this day and age it never will, it'll just get worse. Maybe because it's the fact our generation just is filled with these grown-up thoughts they become little drama queens themselves.

Anyways, I'm going to still be on KT but only for one reason, to post my short horrors. Well, nothing gruesome of course, kid scary stories. I won't be on (hopefully) till December. If I am on, it's to post in my diary. Y'all know nothing about my life, my "real" life. I've been struggling to just speak properly instead of like a child. I can, but for some reason, my mind doesn't want to. I act like a child, or I just change my characters. It's annoying everyone and I can't stop. My mind doesn't want to. I can't find the real me in my maze of faces.

If I'm going to reg. school you won't see me all year long. 2020 second semester, you might see me, but I'll try not to be on. If I'm online, don't get your hopes up, I'm either posting on my diary or I clicked on the tab. So, if you are my close friends, check-in my diary. Because I post sensitive stuff there, but I'm never judged there. I'm going to be on other websites, but you are not supposed to give names out so. For now, I'm just going to talk about different languages with baby boomers online because that's what life is. Going in the pit of your sadness hoping your tears don't drown you to death.

Any interaction will be on my stories. I'm wanting to start a long-awaited series for a while on there, with Silens I being gone I just need something to keep me going. Thanks for reading and pretty please, don't be rude because I stated my opinion on the current state of Gen y and KN (or KT).

"Our hearts are monsters, that's why our ribs are cages."

Last spam, pink aesthetic!

Something off the dark stuff. I saved this so long ago...(none of this art/imagery is mine, btw!)

Something random I saved, for people who like grey imagery!

What's your aesthetic? Mine is black and white, very simple, dark and just sad but not gloomy. Just the contrast seems serious, but because it's black it's just like, t h i s i s d a r k. I'm not a peach aesthetic person, black and white is just wow. Modern black and white though, Like this: (it's too bootiful for it's own well being ahhhh so aesthetic)